I am really struggling with my cravings for food at the moment. Its tough going around the supermarket and seeing things I will never probably eat again, or at least in the quantities that I normally do.
But I am living on in hope that this will make it easier for me when I have had the surgery done. It has to, right..?
Dad has a date for his knee surgery now, so I have to be up and fighting fit for him too.
I am going to miss work for the couple of days that I am off, hoping that I will be able to go back to Work on the Monday - saves me losing holiday and getting out of the loop on things - which I hate.
I am so hungry right now, and its really draining all of my energy. An early night might be in order tonight I think.. that wont make the BF happy...
Anyway, onwards and upwards, as they say:
''THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER''.... or at least this is what I hope!!
I am living in major irrational fear that they are going to cut me open and find cancer, or something else wrong, that I am missing something!
Irrational, but powerful, and enough to make me quake in my size 9 shoes :(
Counting down the days now, till I am me again. Like I never have been before.. x
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